So I should actually be “out-out” right now; I was going to be going out with my bloke friends to a Foo Fighters tribute band gig and to basically drink them under the table. But instead I am on the sofa, wrapped up in my blanket, eating pizza and feeling crap; this morning I started being sick and having a very upset tummy (I won’t go into detail)! Pissed off doesn’t come close. Why is it when we have something fun planned that these things happen! But I thought rather than whinge and moan, I’d make the most of it and curl up and “talk” to you lovely people!
It’s been a lovely week, because we’ve actually had Hubs off work and had some proper family time together. With the in-laws away, they needed someone to come and house sit at their lovely farm in North Norfolk and we happily obliged. Josh loves going there; there’s so much space for him to crawl about and he’s besotted with the dogs we have there. So off we went on Wednesday, with a cheeky stop off in Norwich for a quick shop and arrived to a lovely little bundle of goodies at the farm (thank you Mummy in law) and set about with lighting the farm, cooking dinner and settling Josh for the evening.
We had a lovely few days including a rainy walk in Sheringham park (seriously, it pissed down! I wasn’t impressed), lunch and a stroll in Holt and I even got to enjoy a night out with my best friend and a couple (!) of glasses of wine. The thing that was most enjoyable was spending time with Sam and Josh, all three of us as a family. It may sound daft but those are the days and the memories that are special. With Joshs first birthday fast approaching it’s been on my mind a lot about how I was feeling this time a year ago. I was 38 weeks pregnant, the size of a whale and fit to burst both physically and in terms of excitement!
I read my 38 week update today and it weirdly made me all excited just reading it. I know that sounds dumb because I can’t be excited about something that’s already happened, but reading back the emotions I was feeling and knowing what happened within a couple of weeks was really quite nice. I also read through some of the comments and it’s so lovely that some of the bloggers who commented have become such good friends of mine and were a part of our little journey (sorry, I know people hate that word, but I am too poorly to think of an alternative). I am now at the stage where I am a little bit broody again! Who knows what next year might hold. I certainly don’t want to get too excited or plan too much; one thing I learnt whilst we were trying with Josh (other than the fact that it is entirely possible to have sex pretty much anywhere – all adds to the fun) is that nature will take its course and take as long as necessary. Despite all the shit I’ve been through with miscarriages and the fact I’ve got to go for a scan in a couple of weeks on my ovaries due to lots of cramps and unpleasantness recently, I am still so positive and excited about giving Josh a sibling in the future. I personally don’t see me having more than two children so it’s going to be a special thing for us and I am getting excited about it. But I am also glad I’ve not rushed into anything – I always wanted to really enjoy Joshs first year or two before focusing on getting pregnant again; I like to make the most of every moment with him and we really have done that. He’s my best buddy and the thing I am proudest of in the world.
So with the end of November in sight and December just around the corner, I wanted to set myself so light hearted goals before the end of the year!
- Start Work at Home. This is one I’ve been thinking about for a while and lo and behold after many tests and application forms I have been accepted as a Virtual PA for a company run by Richard Bransons ex PA! I am SO pleased I’ll be earning a few pennies of my own and still be at home. I tend to write blog posts early in the morning or at night so this won’t affect my ramblings (sorry guys)! Plus I’ll still be at home with the baby. Although that does lead me to the next thought…..
- And this is one I’d appreciate advice on. I am considering popping Josh into nursery, perhaps by spring, for a couple of mornings a week. Not only would this be ideal for enabling me to work at home without him needing me, but I think it would be good to get him interacting with other children. We see friends most days and have play dates but I imagine nurseries have a bit more structure and encourage learning. I’d love any advice on this; is it a good idea or would you say I should have him at home for longer? Is it worth me going to have a look around some nurseries to get a feel for them before the end of the year?
- Vlogging! Come on girl – get on with it! I’ve got the camera (thanks Hubs) so now I’ve got to get on with it. I’ve been watching some of my favourite vloggers recently to encourage myself, and I know a lot of them vlog about general day to day stuff and how they are coping with motherhood and I for one, really enjoy those sorts of vlogs. As an epic chatterbox this sort of thing should be no problem for me. So I need to get started and hopefully you guys will enjoy it! If you have ANYTHING (I’m fairly open) you would like to ask me or have me talk about please let me know in the comments below; it might be a good starting point for me.
- Josh’s birthday – OK epic challenge alert…. I’m going to bake his birthday cake! I can’t bake… I’m useless. In fact I can barely cook. But I think I might be selling myself short; I’ve been cooking Josh just about every recipe out of the Annabel Karmel book (oh the creamy tuna pasta is to die for…. *mental note* Must stop eating my child’s food). If I can make those recipes then surely I can tackle a birthday cake! I want to make him a hungry caterpillar one so I’ve been looking on Pinterest for ideas! This may be one goal I need a lot of help with!
- Enjoy Christmas! Last Christmas was tough; I was a new Mum and frankly amongst a mist of buzzing hormones and overwhelming emotions I didn’t know my arse from my elbow. I was so tired, a constant feeding machine and suffering with the baby blues. This year I am SO excited – it’s not even the end of November and I’ve been subtly dotting Christmas decorations around the house and hanging fairy lights anywhere I can get away with! The tree will be going up on 1st December just as it did last year whilst I was labouring, that’s going to be our new tradition. I’ve got Hubby’s presents bought, wrapped up and put away. I am feeling excited and I can’t wait to see both Sam and Josh’s faces when they open their gifts this year. Plus I might be a little bit excited about the Oliver Bonas necklace I’ve asked Father Christmas for……!!!
- Stress less! With starting work, and still wanting to blog, it’s going to be all about balance, especially with Josh thrown into the mix and being the absolute priority. I know myself, I can sometimes take on too much and get overwhelmed and stressed. It’s down to me to make sure this doesn’t happen. Only I can control my stress levels and manage things so that I don’t get bogged down with it all. So I’ll be making a conscious effort here. If that means one week I only blog once, then so be it. The most important thing about the rest of this year, and beyond, is to enjoy it! Life’s too short to get stressed and worry about things – I just need to remind myself how to balance things and make the most of every day.
So that’s my plan for the rest of the year. Enjoying Christmas, giving Josh the best first birthday ever and not poisoning anyone with his birthday cake! I realise I’ve gone off on a bit of a tangent with this weeks Dear Diary but you know me – I love a ramble on, and hopefully you enjoy reading it!
Lots of Love