Monday again! But I am quite loving Monday this week because its my birthday week! I am so silly; I love birthdays, it’s a great excuse for cake, bubbly, and getting friends and family together. So I am full of beans to start this week off.
This weeks Monday Motivation is a real feel good quote. As soon as I saw it I loved it, and it really has made me think just how lucky I am.
I feel so lucky; I am blessed with such a lovely life. I am so happy and content at the moment. Every time I look at Josh I honestly feel quite overwhelmed with how lucky I am that this little boy is mine. I dreamt for so long of being a Mummy. I remember the hard times when we thought it was never going to happen, when you’d feel guilt because everyone else was falling pregnant and we felt envious that we still hadn’t, which is never a good emotion to feel. But looking back at that time now, it feels like a lifetime ago. Because now I’ve got this amazing little boy, a wonderful husband, a lovely home, two daft little cats, my health, I have my blog which I adore, incredible friends; life is good. Sometimes when I’ve had those testing moments, which I have experienced as I’ve written about recently, I’ve learnt that it’s important to take a step back, look at everything in front of me and appreciate just how fortunate I am. I’ve got everything I’ve ever dreamed of. Love, Family, Health and Happiness. It’s everything.
I’ve always wanted a family. I’ve always wanted to be a Mum. My family are amazing, loving and always there for me, but there was a lack of the traditional family unit growing up. My siblings were much older than me and not around much, and my Mum and Dad went through some very testing and argumentative times. In short, it was all a bit dysfunctional. And as much as I love them to bits, I knew when I had a family, I wanted that traditional family set up; dinner round the table, no loud arguments, no going to bed on a row. And I feel so unbelievably lucky that I have that now. My own little family. Don’t get me wrong it’s not all perfect; Sam and I bicker, we have days when tea is on our laps in front of Emmerdale rather than on the table; nothing is perfect. But I knew from a young age how I wanted my family to be and I am so happy that that is the position I am in now. I’m in now way disregarding my own upbringing, I was spoilt with love. But I hated hearing arguments as a kid and I always knew how I’d want to be when I had my own children and family.
We all have tough days, testing days, days when the babies nappy explodes and you are literally covered in shit. Days when they decide to refuse to get back in their car seat whilst you’re out and about, resulting in a public meltdown of epic proportions where they scream so much people probably think you’re torturing your own child, as you try and remain calm, and laugh it off despite the embarrassment as you feel yourself getting all hot and flustered as you tackle your freakishly strong baby in the “you will go in your car seat” battle. Days when your other half comes home complaining about work and you snap back that you don’t care because you’ve nearly lost the plot with a teething screaming child all day and no dinner isn’t prepared because you’re at breaking point! We all have those shitty days. And it can be hard to remind yourself how fortunate you are when you’re being pushed to your limits. But it’s so important that you try to. Take a look at the bigger picture, how many others would do anything to be blessed with what you have, how much you hoped and prayed to get to where you want to be, and look at how much you’ve achieved. Being a parent is everything I ever wanted, but it’s also unpredictable. But so is life; you plough through the crap days and cherish the brighter, happier ones. Sometimes you’ve got to deal with the shower of shit days to appreciate the amazing days, the rewarding highs, and the constant reminder that you’re actually pretty bloody lucky (even when you do find streaks of poo on your elbows from that day’s nappy explosion)!
Have a great week everyone