Motherhood – The First Three Months In Pictures!

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Hi Everyone!

I can’t believe it but this week Josh is 12 weeks! I can’t believe it has been nearly three months since we had him. It has been the most wonderful, insane, eye opening three months of my life. It’s often said a picture says a thousand words and I decided to share some of the pictures from our first three months together.

To warn you, I look horrendous in the early pictures. I was pretty unwell and exhausted after my C Section but I think that the photos show the reality of those early days and how important it is to nap when the baby does (something you will see I do a lot)! So here we go….

3 Days Before Labour 

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Wow! Looking back, I can’t believe how enormous I was! I loved my bump and certainly showed it off proudly. I remember I was starting to feel a bit nervous around this time, although so excited. I was so naive though; I read so much during pregnancy, I had everything ready right down to things in the nursery being opened and ready for use so I didn’t have to faff about when the baby arrived. I was in for quite the eye opener when baby decided to arrive…..

One Hour Old 

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One of our first pictures together! I remember being in awe of what had just happened; I’d been in labour 38 hours, and I couldn’t fully remember Josh being born as I was quite out of it in theatre, and now this beautiful little boy was here and all mine. I was shell shocked and exhausted, but most of all I was the proudest Mummy in the world. I remember being in this room and the nurses being amazing with helping me breastfeed; there was so much to learn but I was given loads of support.

One Day Old 

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Obviously, and as I am sure you’ll agree, understandably, I look like a sack of shit in this photo! I’d had an amazing first night with Josh; he’d slept on me most of the night which I know isn’t the done thing, and it isn’t something I’ve repeated much since, but as I had a C Section and was fairly out of it, I missed out on that immediate skin to skin after the birth. So that was my way of making up for it and I don’t regret it one bit. I had family visit that day which was lovely and I remember we were proud as punch to show off our beautiful new arrival. The hospital were faultless in my care for me; the midwives, consultants and everyone else who was there during my labour were kind, supportive and looked after me so well. I was so grateful for the care I had.

Three Days Old 

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This was taken on our first full day at home after getting back the evening before. I remember it feeling so surreal when we brought Josh home, that feeling of “this is it now, I’m a mummy, I hope I know how to do this”. Of course you learn as you get to know your baby, and with the support of your partner and family. I managed to make myself look half human for this picture – one of my best friends had come over and took it. But I wasn’t looking like this when she first turned up ….. I believe the shirt was fully undone, boobs out, as I tried to master breastfeeding!!! Good thing she doesn’t judge me.  However later that day…..

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Now this is one of the photos I was nervous to post because frankly, and as shallow as it may sound, I look like shit! I was exhausted and couldn’t even be bothered to lie down to sleep; I was just going to sleep anywhere, along with my comfort scarf (oh the shame!!). That chair became my best friend for the first month whilst I rested after the C Section and mastered breastfeeding! Josh looks adorably tiny in this crib; he was like me and up for napping lots!

4 Days Old… The Blues Day

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This is the worst picture of me in the world ever! I hate it. But I think it is a true reflection of how shattering those first few days are. And that’s not to scare anyone, it’s a fact. This is motherhood people; you’ll be tired and, physically, feel rubbish the first few days after the birth. Thankfully the fact you are absolutely besotted with your new baby makes up for it all but I did have a few blue days and I remember this being a particularly bad one. It was the day my midwife came and removed my C section stitch and I just couldn’t stop crying all day, even when I felt happy. My midwife was amazing and supportive all the way through my pregnancy so I felt totally comfortable in front of her and she reassured me that having a weepy day, particularly at this point after birth, was totally normal and to ride it out and have a good cry to get it out my system. Her advice was so reassuring, and that along with my naps when Josh snoozed really were a god send.

Weeks 3-5

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Ahh this was  a proud day; going to get Josh registered. I think it was one of the first times I went out after having him. It was so nice to get out and for such a lovely reason.  Between weeks 3 to 5 I did struggle a lot; I found the sleep deprivation so hard to deal with and I was still getting to grips with feeding and my hormones settling down. I was quite alarmed at how hormonal and emotional I felt and it put me on edge a bit. I am quite an anxious person anyway and I could feel this intensifying as I tried to find my feet with motherhood. But I was hugely fortunate that my husband was amazingly supportive; every day he reminded me what a great job I was doing, Josh was putting on weight and feeding well even though I’d had some discomfort along the way, I was getting a bit more active after the C Section and I was coping better than I realised. I think looking back now I can believe what he, and what family and friends, were saying; I was doing better than I gave myself credit for. But I was a bit down for a few weeks which I felt so guilty before because with such a beautiful little boy I should have only been happy. No one talks about how your emotions can be overwhelming at this stage; you expect the blues for a day or two at the very start but I didn’t expect to still be feeling that way a few weeks after birth. I wanted to nip any low moods in the bud and spoke up quickly about how I was feeling to my husband, doctor and family and friends. I don’t know if it was my speaking up or just things settling down as time had passed but around week 5 things really started to click into place. We’d fallen into a relaxed pattern (I don’t like to say routine at this early stage as it sounds over the top for Joshs age) and I was finally starting to feel physically better. So it was around now I decided it was time to get out and about again!

6 Weeks Old 

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I am one proud mumma in this picture! My friend, who had her baby in September, and I went for a walk around a beautiful lake near where we live, and it’s something we’ve done on a regular basis since. It felt wonderful to be out with a friend, chatting about everything we’d experienced in the last few months and to be getting some fresh air. This was a real turning point for me and showed me I could go out alone, drive, breastfeed in public, and all the other things I’d been nervous about. It helped me so much and spurred me on to make sure Josh and I get out the house every day. And now, if we do have a day at home, we see it as a treat day. We had a lazy day last week but it was wonderful; I even watched two films (Legend with Tom Hardy which is brilliant, and the Ed Sheeran film, Jumpers for Goalposts which made up for missing the Wembley gig last year) which was an achievement in itself.

8 Weeks Old 

IMG_0091It was around this age that Josh started smiling, although sadly he wasn’t in these pictures! It was amazing starting to see his smiles, especially when he saw me or his Daddy. I think you can also see in my eyes, I am 100% more myself, back to normal. I love how happy and proud I look in these pictures, even with bags under my eyes!

12 Weeks Old 

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And we have a smiler!!! I am loving that now I see something new in Josh every day; the noises he makes, the faces he pulls, his recognition of the family. The other day he sat with his Dad watching our fish tank for about 20 minutes in awe. I guess now he is following things more with his eyes and recognising more colours so it’s lovely to see the delight in his face.

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I can hand on heart say I absolutely love being a Mummy. Despite how hard I found it to begin with, as all mothers do I am sure, I truly think it has been the making of me. I feel completely at ease with everything now, even the tiredness. I think now that I don’t have a gazillion hormones racing round and the sleeping has improved over time, I can cope with what the day throws at us so much more. I’ve been fortunate to have the most amazing support from my husband and family and my amazing girlfriends have helped me with so much advice and reassurance.

You can see over these pictures what a journey we’ve been on and we are only three months in! I remember in the first week feeling so ill after the surgery, and the struggle with breastfeeding due to Joshs tongue tie, combined with the tiredness, I was convinced I was never going to feel better. Everyone said to me it would get easier, which all sounded good and well but in that moment I couldn’t believe them. I should have, because it is completely and utterly true. It really has got easier, better and I am so grateful and happy to be blessed with my beautiful baby, my family and my health.

I hope you appreciate the honesty of this post, I know the early pictures are shocking but I wanted to show that no matter how exhausted you are, how much of a state the house is in (and seriously do NOT worry about housework or cleaning it doesn’t matter), it does get easier over time, with the support of your loved ones, the love from your gorgeous baby and most importantly from having faith in yourself.

Thanks for reading xxx

 

39 Comments

  1. February 21, 2016 / 7:35 pm

    Thank you for posting this and being so honest! It’s so useful to hear about your experience as I’m 36 weeks tomorrow eek. You look so happy and wonderful and Josh is an absolute cutie, massive congratulations. 🙂 xx

    • February 21, 2016 / 7:42 pm

      You must be so excited! All I can say is rest loads now and don’t push yourself once baby is here! Take it one day at a time! Can’t wait to hear how you get on xxx

  2. February 22, 2016 / 12:50 pm

    Such lovely pictures! 💙 he is adorable, happy 3 months 💜💜💜 #happydays xxx

  3. February 23, 2016 / 1:44 pm

    Oh, I just LOVE this!! I love the honesty, and the fact that you posted pictures of you when you were feeling sad, and when you were still sporting post birth tummy! I think it’s soooo important to show this side of motherhood. I resonated with so much that you said, I thought I had everything organised, but still freaked out and panicked as soon as we brought our first home. I started crying a week after he was born, and actually didn’t stop for weeks afterwards. It’s true that nobody can prepare you for it, but posts and pictures like this certainly help! And how cute is Josh?!! Thank you so much for bringing this to #bigpinklink!

    • February 24, 2016 / 7:59 am

      Thank you so much for your lovely comment. It is so true – nothing can prepare you. But its so worth it! I am so glad you enjoyed this post xx

  4. February 23, 2016 / 2:39 pm

    Sounds like you’re doing really well – I was too vain? shy? to have any pictures taken when my two were brand new, which I really regret now! It is great that you have these photos for you and your son to look back on in years to come.
    x Alice
    #abitofeverything

  5. anxiousmummyblog
    February 23, 2016 / 6:16 pm

    What a honest post. I can relate to so much of this, my little girl is 6 months today and I completely agree that things do get much better as time goes on. Just wait till he starts moving around, you really do need eyes at the back of your head! You look so wonderfully happy with your gorgeous little man, he is a little cutie! #bigpinklink

  6. February 23, 2016 / 6:34 pm

    What a lovely post. I know you said you hate some of these pictures, but I have hardly any photos of me either pregnant or as a new mum – I banned anyone from taking them as I hated how I looked. I really regret that now as I’d love to be able to look back on that time (isn’t it strange how a bit of time allows you to look back fondly on what was in many parts a bit of a nightmare?!) I also experienced lots of people tell me how ‘it just gets harder’ – who says that to a new mum?

    Well done on getting through the first 3 months! In my experience it just gets better and better 🙂
    #bigpinklink

    • February 24, 2016 / 8:00 am

      Ah thank you so much for your lovely comment hun. I bet you looked lovely really!! I can’t believe people said that to you – as I always say, bye bye negative people! I am with you – it just gets better 🙂 xxx

  7. February 24, 2016 / 11:44 am

    This is lovely. My son is almost exactly the same age and I appreciate so much of this! It was great a few weeks in when we started getting out and about and I breastfed in public for the first time! I’m glad you are enjoying motherhood so much, I feel the same- it’s crazy and tiring but wonderful! #BloggerClubUK

    • February 25, 2016 / 2:36 pm

      Ahh it’s nice to hear from someone pretty much in the same boat, time wise! Things are much better now than at the start but their constant changes keep us on our toes xx

  8. February 24, 2016 / 4:33 pm

    congratulations! lovely pictures. I forget just how exhausting those early days are. they soon pass though! #bloggerclubuk

    • February 25, 2016 / 2:35 pm

      So exhausting!!! But when they give you a big smile at 2am all is forgiven!!! Xx

  9. February 24, 2016 / 4:51 pm

    Awww what a gorgeous little guy. It’s so good of you to post pics that show an accurate reflection of the first few weeks of motherhood – the good, the bad. #BloggerClubUK

  10. mrsmumnz
    February 24, 2016 / 10:01 pm

    These photos are so precious! Even the ones you think are bad. It’s such a special time but the memories soon fade and it’s so easy to forget things you thought you would always remember. You have a gorgeous little boy. Keep taking those photos! #abitofeverything

  11. February 25, 2016 / 1:54 pm

    Not being funny but I am so pleased you posted some of the s*** photos as well as the lovely photos because it is so important to keep it real. I have so many of the former from my first few months! Lovely to follow the journey so far in pics and thanks for linking up lovely x

    • February 25, 2016 / 2:34 pm

      Thanks honey I wanted it to be real and honest, cause it’s not always easy but it is always worth it!!! Xxx #coolmumclub

  12. February 25, 2016 / 2:03 pm

    Hi hun! So Talya is officially reading the ‘odd numbers’ but I just had to stop by and take a peep at how Josh is getting on…that smile is going to break a lot of hearts! Thank you for your continued support with the #coolmumclub linky Lovely xxx PS You look like you’re in your element x

    • February 25, 2016 / 2:34 pm

      Ahh thanks so much Hun!! I’m glad you had a read – he’s a little cutie isn’t he 😊😊😊 I’m proud as punch! So happy to be part of #coolmumclub xxx

  13. February 26, 2016 / 10:45 am

    Aw, gorgeous pictures! Love his little smile! Thanks for sharing the real pictures of motherhood, both the “tired” and the “happy” moments because they are as you say, make up the whole of motherhood. His smile makes it all worthwhile – so lovely to follow your journey! Thanks for sharing with #abitofeverything

  14. February 26, 2016 / 8:19 pm

    Aww this is such an open and honest account of motherhood – I remember the baby blues days oh so well as I was awful on days 5 and 6. Like a women possessed! Thanks for linking up to #HappyDaysLinky x

  15. February 26, 2016 / 8:32 pm

    Ah what a lovely record to look back on in years to come. Those early days are totally pants but it does get easier doesn’t it? Thank you for sharing in #HappyDaysLinky x

  16. newmummyblogcom
    February 27, 2016 / 10:28 pm

    this really is a lovely post and such a special summary of your first 3 months as a mummy and for Josh. I think you look brilliant in all the pictures, but those first few weeks are the toughest, and now you’re into the ‘new things every day’ stage it’s just so fun and exciting. Thank you so much for sharing with us on #TheBabyFormula

  17. February 28, 2016 / 8:05 am

    I think that it is great that you have been so honest and posted lots of different pictures so that you can get a realistic impression of what early motherhood is like. A really lovely summary too of your first 3 months together. congratulations #KACOLS

  18. February 29, 2016 / 8:26 pm

    This is a lovely post, I love how honest and open you’ve been. This brought back memories of the very early days for me, I too had a c section and found it extremely difficult to begin with. Normally I’m running around trying to get everything done, well not being able to move without severe pain was horrible, and being so dosed up on paracetamol and ibuprofen, and having to inject myself with the clexane! You have done amazingly well and you should be very proud. It’s not easy to begin with, but it gets easier as they get older. Well done on the BF too, I found it so challenging after my c section, but we are still going 7 months on. Claire X #KCAKOLS

  19. February 29, 2016 / 9:08 pm

    This is such a lovely post 🙂 I have been putting off getting my dary out for the first few weeks as I am scared about what I am going to remember as the brain has a funny way of making you forget all this, but at 31 weeks I need to remember and accept I am doing it all again eek!! Well done you, I think its important we share the utter exhaustion so that when others read they know its normal and don’t beat themselves up for not being the perfect mother they had in they head put there by social media. He looks a very happy little boy with a gorgeous smile all credit to you and your OH. Thank you for joining us at #BloggerClubUK hope to see you again next week x

  20. March 1, 2016 / 2:04 pm

    Lovely pictures, and a moving account of your first 12 weeks. Glad all is going well for you and your little one. #KCACOLS

  21. March 2, 2016 / 8:15 pm

    What lovely photos and update. Those first few months are hard but sounds like your doing great! #thebabyformula xx

  22. wonderfulandaverage
    March 2, 2016 / 9:22 pm

    Love this post! So honest and it really brings back a lot of memories! The early days are so hard but incredible at the same time, I can’t wait to do it all over again in July! #coolmumclub

  23. March 3, 2016 / 9:19 am

    I absolutely love this post. It is so honest and real. This is how motherhood really is. And yes the first weeks you look exactly how you looked in your photos: exhausted but at the same time beautiful! It is a tough time but at the same time are those weeks the ones that we start to know our baby and learn how to be a mum. I love the whole story through your pictures. Josh is a gorgeous baby, you are a great mother and you have a beautiful family!! Thanks so much for sharing this at #KCACOLS. I would love to see you again on Sunday! 🙂 x

    • March 3, 2016 / 3:36 pm

      Thank you so much hun your comment means so much xxx

  24. March 4, 2016 / 2:53 pm

    This is a great post. You have described those early days perfectly, exhausting and emotional and amazing all rolled in to one. I don’t think you look bad in any of the pictures, I am sure I looked much worse haha. Little Josh is a cutie. You are doing a fab job mumma!

    Thank you for linking this up to #KCACOLS. Hope to see you again next Sunday xx

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