• Dreams… We all have dreams for our children; for their future, for their happiness. We …

    View Post
  • Sometimes it dawns on me how much of what I envisaged when I was pregnant …

    View Post
  • Oh my beloved blog. I approach you borderline shame faced. I haven’t written in …

    View Post
  • A little bit of what you ask….. It could be anything; a little bit of …

    View Post
  • Recently I was trying to explain to a friend who I’d not seen in …

    View Post
  • Dear Diary – Our Week at the Farm!

    Hi Everyone,

    So I should actually be “out-out” right now; I was going to be going out with my bloke friends to a Foo Fighters tribute band gig and to basically drink them under the table. But instead I am on the sofa, wrapped up in my blanket, eating pizza and feeling crap; this morning I started being sick and having a very upset tummy (I won’t go into detail)! Pissed off doesn’t come close. Why is it when we have something fun planned that these things happen! But I thought rather than whinge and moan, I’d make the most of it and curl up and “talk” to you lovely people!

    It’s been a lovely week, because we’ve actually had Hubs off work and had some proper family time together. With the in-laws away, they needed someone to come and house sit at their lovely farm in North Norfolk and we happily obliged. Josh loves going there; there’s so much space for him to crawl about and he’s besotted with the dogs we have there. So off we went on Wednesday, with a cheeky stop off in Norwich for a quick shop and arrived to a lovely little bundle of goodies at the farm (thank you Mummy in law) and set about with lighting the farm, cooking dinner and settling Josh for the evening.


    She does look after me!

    We had a lovely few days including a rainy walk in Sheringham park (seriously, it pissed down! I wasn’t impressed), lunch and a stroll in Holt and I even got to enjoy a night out with my best friend and a couple (!) of glasses of wine.  The thing that was most enjoyable was spending time with Sam and Josh, all three of us as a family. It may sound daft but those are the days and the memories that are special. With Joshs first birthday fast approaching it’s been on my mind a lot about how I was feeling this time a year ago. I was 38 weeks pregnant, the size of a whale and fit to burst both physically and in terms of excitement!


    I read my 38 week update today and it weirdly made me all excited just reading it. I know that sounds dumb because I can’t be excited about something that’s already happened, but reading back the emotions I was feeling and knowing what happened within a couple of weeks was really quite nice. I also read through some of the comments and it’s so lovely that some of the bloggers who commented have become such good friends of mine and were a part of our little journey (sorry, I know people hate that word, but I am too poorly to think of an alternative). I am now at the stage where I am a little bit broody again! Who knows what next year might hold. I certainly don’t want to get too excited or plan too much; one thing I learnt whilst we were trying with Josh (other than the fact that it is entirely possible to have sex pretty much anywhere  – all adds to the fun) is that nature will take its course and take as long as necessary. Despite all the shit I’ve been through with miscarriages and the fact I’ve got to go for a scan in a couple of weeks on my ovaries due to lots of cramps and unpleasantness recently, I am still so positive and excited about giving Josh a sibling in the future. I personally don’t see me having more than two children so it’s going to be a special thing for us and I am getting excited about it. But I am also glad I’ve not rushed into anything – I always wanted to really enjoy Joshs first year or two before focusing on getting pregnant again; I like to make the most of every moment with him and we really have done that. He’s my best buddy and the thing I am proudest of in the world.


    So with the end of November in sight and December just around the corner, I wanted to set myself so light hearted goals before the end of the year!


    OK so I’m not staying quiet, but you get the idea!

    • Start Work at Home. This is one I’ve been thinking about for a while and lo and behold after many tests and application forms I have been accepted as a Virtual PA for a company run by Richard Bransons ex PA! I am SO pleased I’ll be earning a few pennies of my own and still be at home. I tend to write blog posts early in the morning or at night so this won’t affect my ramblings (sorry guys)! Plus I’ll still be at home with the baby. Although that does lead me to the next thought…..
    • And this is one I’d appreciate advice on. I am considering popping Josh into nursery, perhaps by spring, for a couple of mornings a week. Not only would this be ideal for enabling me to work at home without him needing me, but I think it would be good to get him interacting with other children. We see friends most days and have play dates but I imagine nurseries have a bit more structure and encourage learning. I’d love any advice on this; is it a good idea or would you say I should have him at home for longer? Is it worth me going to have a look around some nurseries to get a feel for them before the end of the year?
    • Vlogging! Come on girl – get on with it! I’ve got the camera (thanks Hubs) so now I’ve got to get on with it. I’ve been watching some of my favourite vloggers recently to encourage myself, and I know a lot of them vlog about general day to day stuff and how they are coping with motherhood and I for one, really enjoy those sorts of vlogs. As an epic chatterbox this sort of thing should be no problem for me. So I need to get started and hopefully you guys will enjoy it! If you have ANYTHING (I’m fairly open) you would like to ask me or have me talk about please let me know in the comments below; it might be a good starting point for me.
    • Josh’s birthday – OK epic challenge alert…. I’m going to bake his birthday cake! I can’t bake… I’m useless. In fact I can barely cook. But I think I might be selling myself short; I’ve been cooking Josh just about every recipe out of the Annabel Karmel book (oh the creamy tuna pasta is to die for…. *mental note* Must stop eating my child’s food).  If I can make those recipes then surely I can tackle a birthday cake! I want to make him a hungry caterpillar one so I’ve been looking on Pinterest for ideas! This may be one goal I need a lot of help with!
    • Enjoy Christmas! Last Christmas was tough; I was a new Mum and frankly amongst a mist of buzzing hormones and overwhelming emotions I didn’t know my arse from my elbow. I was so tired, a constant feeding machine and suffering with the baby blues. This year I am SO excited – it’s not even the end of November and I’ve been subtly dotting Christmas decorations around the house and hanging fairy lights anywhere I can get away with! The tree will be going up on 1st December just as it did last year whilst I was labouring, that’s going to be our new tradition. I’ve got Hubby’s presents bought, wrapped up and put away. I am feeling excited and I can’t wait to see both Sam and Josh’s faces when they open their gifts this year. Plus I might be a little bit excited about the Oliver Bonas necklace I’ve asked Father Christmas for……!!!
    • Stress less! With starting work, and still wanting to blog, it’s going to be all about balance, especially with Josh thrown into the mix and being the absolute priority. I know myself, I can sometimes take on too much and get overwhelmed and stressed. It’s down to me to make sure this doesn’t happen. Only I can control my stress levels and manage things so that I don’t get bogged down with it all. So I’ll be making a conscious effort here. If that means one week I only blog once, then so be it.  The most important thing about the rest of this year, and beyond, is to enjoy it! Life’s too short to get stressed and worry about things – I just need to remind myself how to balance things and make the most of every day.


    So that’s my plan for the rest of the year. Enjoying Christmas, giving Josh the best first birthday ever and not poisoning anyone with his birthday cake! I realise I’ve gone off on a bit of a tangent with this weeks Dear Diary but you know me – I love a ramble on, and hopefully you enjoy reading it!

    Lots of Love




    1. November 21, 2016 / 1:55 pm

      Ahh I love this Fi – sorry you were poorly but sounds like a week at the farm was fabulous! I love all your plans for Josh’s birthday and Christmas, so exciting and they are at such a gorgeous age. I’ve been thinking about this time last year loads as well, so strange! I didn’t even know if I was having a boy or girl and now I’ve got my beautiful boy. #bigpinklink
      Ellen recently posted…#MamaMail: A little bit of happiness in the postMy Profile

      • beautybabyandme
        November 21, 2016 / 2:34 pm

        Ah thanks chick! It is crazy looking back at a year ago! Xx

    2. November 21, 2016 / 6:49 pm

      awww I feel you on first baby Christmas being tough. I recently wrote a post about that. it wasn’t what I expected! sounds like you had a fab week at the Farm in Norfol 🙂
      Good luck with your goals and aims and just go for it with the vlogging! Ive done a few reviews and that’s it really! #KCACOLS

      • beautybabyandme
        November 21, 2016 / 7:06 pm

        Ah thank you chick xxx

    3. November 21, 2016 / 7:39 pm

      Your week away sounds perfect! Best of luck with all your goals too, I don’t doubt for a minute that you’ll achieve them all. The Very Hungry Caterpillar cake sounds amazing – I just went with a bog standard chocolate fudge for Max’s birthday. For what it’s worth on the nursery front, I started Max at nursery for 2 days a week when he had just turned one, and I think it’s one of the best decisions I made. It’s helped reinforce good behaviours that I’m trying to teach him at home (for some reason when a room full of toddlers are doing something, they all just join in!), and I couldn’t be happier with our nursery – it’s clear that the staff genuinely care about him. #KCACOLS
      Katy – Hot Pink Wellingtons recently posted…5 Happy Things #26My Profile

      • beautybabyandme
        November 21, 2016 / 8:05 pm

        Ah this has really reassured me thank you chick

    4. November 22, 2016 / 10:53 am

      Ahh I love this. Sorry you missed your night out, it’s sods law isn’t it? Yayyy for the virtual PA job, go you! Harry has started just 5 hours a week at nursery and he absolutely loves it!! I think it’s always harder for us than it is for them, he’ll be fine I promise! Lots of fab goals for December, I need to start making some goals but today my only goal is to get through the day without losing the plot!! #dreamteam
      five little doves recently posted…Megatron – The “Transformation”My Profile

    5. November 22, 2016 / 4:51 pm

      Ooh, congratulations on finding a brilliant job, that you can do from home!! That sounds absolutely perfect!! Both of my boys were 2&1/2 when they started nursery, but I still wasn’t working, it was purely to give me a break, and get them socialising a bit more. Now I’ve got more going on with the blog, I absolutely need them there, as I can’t get a thing done with them at home!! You could always trial Josh, and if he doesn’t settle, take him out and wait for a bit longer? God, I’m making the cake for my eldest’s party at the weekend… I’m no baker either!! Best of luck to both of us!!!!! I hope Josh has an awesome birthday!! It’s rubbish that you were ill for your big night out, but offset with some lovely positivity as usual-the trip to your inlaws farm sounds idyllic!! x
      This Mum’s Life recently posted…When Your Best Friends Are No Longer Your Best FriendsMy Profile

      • beautybabyandme
        November 23, 2016 / 9:38 am

        Ah thank you so much chick for this comment. Love the trial idea and something I think I may give a go xx

    6. November 22, 2016 / 8:44 pm

      Sorry you missed your concert because you were ill, but congratulations on your new job! How exciting. I think you need to do what you feel is right regarding nursery – whatever you decide will be right if you are comfortable. However, my daughter started nursery at 11 months and goes 3 full days per week. She’s been there almost a year now and LOVES it. She runs happily in everyday, even when she’s feeling tired or has a bit of a sniffle. It was absolutely the right thing to do for her and has massively helped her development. I think go and visit some and find somewhere you feel comfortable then give it a try! Just remember that the first few times will be a bit of a shock for you both so take it slow and give both of you time to adjust. Good luck with your decision! #DreamTeam
      Angela Watling recently posted…‘Meal of the Month’ – Tomato & olive spaghetti – November 2016My Profile

    7. November 22, 2016 / 8:51 pm

      Wow great job! Sounds like things are really working out, love the goals. I think it’s worth having the little one in nursery, but do what you feel is best for you (your gut feeling will tell you what’s right). Have a super Christmas and hope 2017 is super awesome. #bigpinklink

      • beautybabyandme
        November 23, 2016 / 9:37 am

        Thanks lovely – same to you xx

    8. November 25, 2016 / 10:17 am

      Sorry to hear you have not been well but I love your plans! I also loved your pics, it looks so cosy with the dog and the woodburner. Thanks so much for linking up at #KCACOLS. Hope you come back again next Sunday.
      Sharon Parry recently posted…Bored teenagers – what I have learnedMy Profile

    9. November 27, 2016 / 3:58 pm

      How lucky are you staying at the farm, that sounds like loads of fun. I completely agree with the idea of setting your own goals, smashing them and cheering for yourself. I do love a quiet victory, or at least taking the pressure away by not telling anyone about them. Thank you for linking up to the #dreamteam x
      Annette, 3 Little Buttons recently posted…#HappyLittleButtons November Round UpMy Profile

    Leave a Reply

    Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

    CommentLuv badge